Yet I await forgiveness, I have already repented.
The talks in Sacrament yesterday were about repentance, with a little bit of forgiveness thrown in. They were good. I think forgiveness needs to be talked about more though.
The scriptures say you are to forgive someone up to 70×7 times. Or, in other words, a lot. I’ve discovered there are many different type of people we all have to forgive.
You have to forgive people who messed up and are sincerely sorry and repentant about it. You have to forgive people who don’t know they hurt you and so don’t know you are trying to forgive them. You have to forgive people who know they hurt you, and while they might be sorry for that time, you can be pretty sure they could do it again. You have to forgive people who know they hurt you, but aren’t sorry one bit about it. And then you have to forgive yourself too.
Sometimes forgiveness comes easier than at others. Sometimes it comes quickly and other times it can take a very long time. I’ve learned that at all times though, forgiveness, either for ourselves or for others, is a gift from heaven. And as such, you can pray to receive it. Forgiveness is almost always a matter of prayer.
The healing power of the Atonement. I can be made whole, my burdens lifted, and my soul comforted. It makes no difference who inflicted the wounds (myself or someone else). I can turn to Him and become whole again. Sometimes I find myself wanting to hold onto a grudge, but then I remember that I can be free from that anger and hurt by forgiving others and myself. Forgiveness is a powerful gift and I am grateful for it.